Fight for Your Life

“Life”, what exactly does life mean? It’s what you’re born with. You exist in it every day. All year, every year. It is what you have until you are dead…it is your only job you are completely trusted with on this plant and you are responsible for it. Sounds like a lot, doesn’t it? I realise I’m stating the obviously but life is particularly difficult when you have depression.

Life can feel like an enormous task. It is one huge commitment none of us signed up for. We were just born and with that first breath we unconsciously said “yes” to life. Although this is one of the most wonderful things we are given, I believe we fight for our lives every minute of every day. Not just when someone has been in a car accident, or been diagnosed with a terminal illness. Everyone fights for their life all the time, but to those struggling with depression, that perspective might ring even truer.

By opening your eyes in the morning, you fight for your life.

While stumbling out of bed and into the shower, you fight for your life.

By eating breakfast, dinner/lunch, and tea/dinner, you fight for your life.

By walking to school, driving to work, waiting in line, waiting for a bus, waiting for the news to come on, you fight for your life.

In talking with others, you fight for your life. In loving others, you fight for your life.

See where I’m going with this?

Most of the time I am not happy and I certainly do not feel like breaking into song when I see the sun shining in the sky. I am more likely to leave my shades drawn because I’m too lazy to pull them open, but somewhere in the back of my mind I’m aware that the sun has risen today. It made the effort. I don’t know how the sun does it, but it does it.

The grass grows and my hair grows, my dog once shed her fur and my email inbox fills itself up. There are bills and rain and sun and day and night. Change is happening absolutely everywhere. The world is spinning, and I’m a part of that.

I don’t know why I’m here on Earth and sometimes I don’t even know if I truly want to be here, but I do know that I can handle taking this breath and just maybe, the one after that. And if I think far enough ahead and think about everything that I have to do today, my soul puts on its boxing gloves. I’m stepping into the ring, fighting death, fighting adversity, fighting people who try to knock me down.

I have been alive for twenty-two and a half years. How long have you been alive? Count the years, count the months, count the minutes. Count the seconds that you have breathed for. Also think of the times someone else has fought for your life, possibly your parents who created you or the Doctors and counsellors who are trying to help? Consider all of those years of life. That is one hell of a long time and you should recognize that. And if we’ve both been fighting for our lives for this long, can’t we go on a little bit longer? Maybe if we fight together and acknowledge that it IS a fight, it will help us keep going. It isn’t easy but hey, we’ve made it this far.

Every day we have a choice and when we choose to keep going in even the smallest of ways, we fight for our life and we are worth it.

 

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2 thoughts on “Fight for Your Life

  1. Life is a fight, but what a great battle it is. Sometimes it can be so painful and not seem worth living, and then you step out on an Autumn morning and see the sun rise over the changing leaves of the trees and feel your heart and soul lift. You feel your lungs open and it is like you couldn’t breathe and suddenly you can!

    None of us really know why we’re here and for those of us who think too deeply about it, that can be a torment, but as an outsider looking in who reads all you write, I know why you’re here. You help others. You reach out and touch countless people that you don’t even know. I can only IMAGINE the grace you impart on those you do meet face-to-face.

    You’ll keep fighting because it’s who you are. You fight for your life because at the end of the day you know its value: to yourself and to others. You are worth it. We are worth it. Everyone is worth it. We just need to help everyone realize it.

    Peace

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  2. You are right, people of all ages, genders, likes and dislikes need to realise their worth. A life is so precious and was given to you by a life that is already living and breathing, but also a life that would stop living and breathing to save yours. I feel when I am low I forget these things – I have to think of my family, my friends and especially my boyfriend and realise how much of a negative impact it would have on them if I were to leave this world…and that’s when I’m conscious that death is not the answer as couldn’t do such a thing to the people I love.

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